stereotypical single woman

First - simply as a gimmick to get your attention - here’s a gratuitous baby pic. I haven’t posted any of Amelia lately and she’s growing up so fast, she doesn’t even look like a baby anymore, she looks like a little girl, and she amazes me with how sweet, smart, and funny she is every time I see her…

And now for the real post - I was perusing my entries and I’ve realized that lately they’ve sounded a little negative and down. Possibly because I’ve felt a little negative and down for a very long time. And it’s because I feel like I’m in a constant state of scrambling to be, have, or do something else, and get far far away from what, where, and who I am because no matter what I do I feel that I’m just not good enough. I want to be more successful (although I have no idea what that means to me at the moment), I want to be skinny and pretty, I want a man, I want more stuff than I need, I want a better job, I want all of you to be closer, etc… And you know what, all of this wanting is exhausting, it doesn’t make my life any better, and it’s just got to stop. Now. It’s creating a lot of unhealthy and unneeded stress and there’s absolutely no one to blame but myself for any of it.*

I’ve decided to start my New Year’s resolution a month early and do the opposite of what everyone else does, instead of trying to change myself and obtain new things I’m going to learn to stop wanting things I can’t have/don’t need and be happy with what I’ve got in my life. After all, in comparison to the 852 million people who can’t feed themselves on a daily basis my whining about the struggle to pay my student loans and feed my cats is insignificant and an insult. I need to appreciate that I’ve at least had the chance to get a Masters (and am preparing to get a 2nd) which puts me in the top 9.6% of the US population according to the US Census Bureau, and simply do whatever needs to be done to pay for that privilege. I’ve been dealt a good hand in life, far better than I deserve, so I need to stop wanting the royal flush when I’ve already got a full house. And to make sure that I keep this up once a week I’m going to share with everyone something or someone that makes my life pretty damn great. So keep on reading, who knows, I might do a whole post just about you (and DTE Energy.)

*however this does not mean that I’m not open to meeting any single guys any of you may know, please, play matchmaker