stereotypical single woman

Last Friday I went on an interview at a school in Kentucky. It went well. The campus is small but expanding. The department is young and active. They seemed impressed enough with me. But I’m just not sure how I felt about the place. The money wouldn’t be great, especially with the cost of living near a large city. Plus, looking around, the area kind of gave me the creeps.

I just can’t explain it. When I was trying to find the right undergrad (and trust me, I was looking for a while, it took three schools and three years before I found the right one) once I got to Kalamazoo the area just clicked as being the right place for me at that time in my life. Then when I interviewed for grad schools, and knew I was going to be moving far away from home and was slightly hesitant about it, I got to Chapel Hill and I just knew it was where I was supposed to be. Then I moved to Staten Island, it wasn’t a good fit, but the job seemed like it would be worth moving there anyway. But it obviously wasn’t because I was so unhappy I left after a few months. So obviously I hesitate to move someplace that doesn’t feel right. I guess right now I’m just trying to figure out where I belong as much as trying to find a job.

I thought I had a few more weeks to think about it, but this morning I got an email from the costume designer at the school in Kentucky, not offering the job yet, but hintly heavily that they will be. They will be interviewing the other candidate for the job this coming Monday, making a decision by Wed, and expecting a contract to be signed by next Friday. Yikes. And the job starts June 1st. I don’t even interview in Tulsa until the 25th, so the chances of me hearing anything from them by the 28th are very slim. Maybe I’m getting it totally wrong. Maybe they won’t offer me the job. But that’s a hell of a lot to think about in the next week if they do.